From The Past: September 10, 2004

If you could travel in the future to any time in your life to find out what happens or to just enjoy the moment, what period or moment in your life would you want to observe and why?

I would answer this question by saying that I would want to travel to Andrew or Ashley’s wedding, or the birth of my grandchildren. But those things may not happen in the future. Andrew and Ashley may not get married and they may never have children. I admit it’s not likely that these things won’t happen to either of them, but you never know.

The one thing that is certain is death. Everyone is going to die. I would like to know when I will die, how it will happen, where I will be, who will be there beside me, what time of day, etc. I know that most people don’t care to know these things, but I recognize that my life would be drastically different if I had this information.

As things are now, I am terrified of travel by car. We had a car wreck about nine years ago. It wasn’t even our fault, but I have never gotten over that fear. When Kevin and I are together, I drive the car. The only time he drives is when we are going someplace other than around Winchester or Lexington. When this happens, it is not a pretty scene. I am tense the entire time and constantly worried about that crazy driver coming out of nowhere. This is sad for Kevin because he commutes to work every day. It’s not like he’s a bad driver; it’s just my silly fear.

I would love to travel by train or cruise ship. I’m sure that I would have no fears then. I know that a lot could happen, but I would feel safer. Now airplane I am not so sure about. I know that I will eventually have to fly in order to travel to the places I want to visit. When that happens, I’m sure that I will be on some strong drugs – for my sake and Kevin’s!

So, my answer to this question would be: traveling to my death. I wouldn’t enjoy it, but it would change everything.

Currently (2020): I can honestly say that my answer to the above question surprises me. I would not have the same answer now. If I knew exactly when and how I was going to die, I would fret over it every single day. I would dwell on it and try to come up with a plan to change things. I would drive myself crazy. So, no, I definitely would NOT want to travel to my death.

I would travel to the next time that I am able to visit London, whenever that may be. If it’s a year from now or five years from now; THAT is where I would want to be to just enjoy the moment. I know if I am there, I am happy and I want to travel to a place where I know I will be happy.